No Not What To Think
Mood:  down
Today was the first day I could sort things out in my head. I finally convinced myself I am alone again, not like that really matters. There are many things that confuse me. Like whats wrong with me that noone likes me. Hey what ever who cares. Theres this one guy that I really like but dont think he feels the same way. Its most likely not gonna work anyway, nothing ever does. But i got to keep smiling making sure noone sees the pain i have inside. Well he is like something different, like I smile talking to him, thinking about him. I loved hanging with him. But with all that went on i'm not sure I know whats going on. Like yeah what ever well enough for now.....

Deep Down Inside
Mood:  not sure
Its all coming back,
not like it was never there.
These feelings of joy and happiness,
overwhelmed by fear.

How do I over come,
what is growing deep down inside?

A mistake to me,
but the truth to you.
That for the longest time,
you've felt it too.

To say I love you,
something I want to do.

But a goodbye with a smile,
is all that I can do.